hMmM, mGa bEsT kOh..

....LaPit na...lapit na punta ni best badine d2..lapit n rin binyag ng baby ni best grace...lapit na rin ang O...ko..panu kya un???
Super loaded tlga sched ko now..don't know what to do first..
..anyway this coming nov 7 ang dating ni best badine from davao..i wish masusundo ko xa sa airport ..kaso may appointments na ako on that date,,,hehe appointment huh..d nga.. i just have some important things to do on that dates.. but i really wanted to be there when she arrive....
Another thing is ang binyag ng baby ni best grace..it's on nov. 9..hay graveh..d tlga ako pwede...more important to kesa sa pupuntahan ko sa nov 7..? paano ba toh? i wanted to be the ninang of the besfriend's baby...hayyy..hirap nmn..expect pa nmn nila na pupunta ako..hmmmm, pupunta nlng ako later..even after the binyag..bka pwede pa humabol..hehe,so pano i need to go na kailangan ko pa mag isip ng mga ways...:)..bye.mwuah

ay...,mali..

hello, ai mali...that's human...lage nalang tayo nagkakamali pero sometimes we need to try and actually do it for us to see and realize na mali tayo. No one can tell us whether we are right or wrong...tayo mismo ang makakapagsabi kng tama tayo o mali..and once we realize na mali tayo, we gradually change our ways or that way which we commit mistakes to make everything right.True it's not easy to accept that mali tayo but we have to in order for us to shift plans, ....it is in need for us to know our ownself,for us to know who you really are. Kung yon b tlga ang gusto mo for the rest of your life..does it make you happy....?? and most of all is it what your heart really wants to. Never care about what other people tell about you. They can't help to make you happy ,iether, they'll never know what's best for you...they didn't know you for who you really are from the inside of you after all. We don't actually need a bitch in our life.

it's been a while

hmmm, it's been a while since i visit my site.Tagal n rin di ako nakapagsulat. I miss writing,..i miss being me ,miss my family,i miss my school, my friends and the silly games we played, the things we've been doing before during high school days...i wonder when can we meet again...kelan ba tlga?

Bata pa lang ako when i started imagining on how to be a working woman,how does it feels,masaya ba? Now naman na nagwowork na ako i started missing out on how to be a child,wla kang iniisip na problema kundi ang maglaro lang,ang eenjoy every second of your time.Whenever i have problems takbo agad kay mama. And now ala c mama sa tabi ko pra sasalo sa mga problema ko she's just there to advice me and i have to learn on how to solve my problem on my own. Mahirap pala magkaroon ng responsibilidad. Ang mag-isip kung papaano ang bukas. Minsan gusto kong tumakas..i mean takasan ang problema pero papaano nga tba?...paano ba takasan ang problema..kc kahit anong gawin ko ayaw akong tantanan ei...kahit umiyak pa ako ng umiyak....

But then i realize na hndi pla tinatakasan ang problema,hinarahap pla un ng buong tapang para hndi ka matalo. Sabi nga nila The harder the test the tougher you become.

it's been a while

hmmm, it's been a while since i visit my site.Tagal n rin di ako nakapagsulat. I miss writing,..i miss being me ,miss my family,i miss my school, my friends and the silly games we played, the things we've been doing before during high school days...i wonder when can we meet again...kelan ba tlga?

Bata pa lang ako when i started imagining on how to be a working woman,how does it feels,masaya ba? Now naman na nagwowork na ako i started missing out on how to be a child,wla kang iniisip na problema kundi ang maglaro lang,ang eenjoy every second of your time.Whenever i have problems takbo agad kay mama. And now ala c mama sa tabi ko pra sasalo sa mga problema ko she's just there to advice me and i have to learn on how to solve my problem on my own. Mahirap pala magkaroon ng responsibilidad. Ang mag-isip kung papaano ang bukas. Minsan gusto kong tumakas..i mean takasan ang problema pero papaano nga tba?...paano ba takasan ang problema..kc kahit anong gawin ko ayaw akong tantanan ei...kahit umiyak pa ako ng umiyak....

But then i realize na hndi pla tinatakasan ang problema,hinarahap pla un ng buong tapang para hndi ka matalo. Sabi nga nila The harder the test the tougher you become.

Beginner's Guide to Meditation

Source: California Psychics

If someone told you, do this one thing every day and your life will absolutely, without a doubt improve and even the present will become more enjoyable, most people would beg to sign up! Yet when you reveal this magical potion as meditation, there can be resistance.

Some of us would rather be told it's an operation or an expensive investment. Perhaps you tried meditation once and decided - I can't do it! I can't even sit still for five minutes! How can I meditate for 10 or even 20 minutes?

The real question is how can you not meditate?

Our minds crave peace and emptiness so much it tries to process everything as quickly as possible to get to a peaceful place. But instead of giving our minds a rest, we just pile on more things! We fill up all of our time, our relationships are endlessly complex and just living in our world is filled with passwords, parking spaces, pollution and taxes! Our minds want to rest so much they have to make us physically sick just to get a break.

If you live an unconscious life of action and reaction, you cannot have inner peace, and outer peace will eventually be impossible. But if you dare to dive within, you won't just find peace, you'll find everything waiting for you in the unified field.

This energy is what ties everything together in the entire universe. It's always there, but the world of form confuses us and we think the form is the real thing. But it's the unseen beneath the form that is the real thing. It's holding everything around you and is even holding you. And when you meditate you wrap yourself in a blanket of infinite possibility and power.

With that in mind, try our easy beginner's guide to a journey that could change your life.

Keep it simple!
You don't have to find a guru to learn how to meditate. You don't have to take a class. You don't have to pay for a "mantra." You can do all of the above if you find them helpful, but meditation is for free, for joy and for you.

Step 1
Meditate as soon as you wake up. It can be helpful to brush your teeth or drink a glass of water but you don't need to eat breakfast. In fact, the less you put between the moment you awake and the moment you start meditating, the better. If you can sit cross-legged on the floor with your back straight, that's great. But if you would prefer to sit in a chair, that's fine too. You don't have to look like a yogi to experience the power of meditation. You just need to be willing.

Step 2
Start with sound and then move to silence. Begin by setting a timer for ten minutes and set it aside. Now, open your mouth and make sound. Unformed, open, pure sound. It will sound strange to you if you are used to only using your mouth for words, but let go of all self-consciousness and just let pure sound come out of your mouth. Keep doing it until you are the sound. Then take the volume down to silence.

If you are not in the practice of meditating, as soon as you stop making noise, your mind will leap right back in with chatter, "you don't have time for this, this isn't doing anything, why did you say that at work yesterday…" and that is great. It means your mind is so full that it wants to empty itself. As each thought comes, say out loud, "Thank you, I release you now," and return to open sound and then return to silence. If you keep this practice going, you'll find that the space between the thoughts (the peace that passeth understanding!) will grow and grow. Soon your grateful dismissal of thoughts that do not serve you will come quickly and you'll find yourself dismissing thoughts all day long that do not serve a peaceful existence.

Step 3
Once ten minutes feels like five - and it will eventually! Go ahead and set the timer for 20 minutes. It's time to swim in the infinite field! Start your meditation with open sound and turn to silence. Now focus your energy from your pelvis - to your heart - and then to the space between your eyes. Some call this the "third eye." Visualize a little man who leaps from your forehead and splashes into an endless sea of light. You are that little man - you are surrounded on all sides everywhere by the infinite field. You are made of the very same light and you can swim in the infinite field at all times! When we open our eyes, we see all the distractions to peace. But the distractions are an allusion. The field is always there around you. You are never alone, because you are never separate. You are part of the whole. The field is you.

Step 4
Now it's time to receive. In just a day or two you will see how meditation quiets your mind and makes you both more alert and more at peace. Over a period of weeks, you will start to see things connecting in your life in unexpected and incredible ways. Thoughts will come when you are swimming and you will start to feel led in your life, rather than alone and terrified! Negativity will diminish itself as you empty the thoughts each morning. The thoughts that do interrupt you will be softer and kinder. The hard, angry thoughts are always the first to go because they are the strongest and they are the first to fight against meditation. Once you release them, they lose all their power. Some days you have so many negative thoughts, it seems all you are doing is releasing them! Isn't it wonderful that you can let them go? Before meditation, you had no defense at all. And it is these voices that keep us from accessing our true selves, our purpose and our great life.

There is nothing more powerful you can do, then to meditate, to receive all that the universe wants for you. Why wouldn't you want to tap into every talent and ability you have?

Tips
Don't give up if you miss a day or two. Just go right back to your practice.

Don't judge your meditation. It will plateau a few times before you really go deep. That's okay.

If you get discouraged, meditate. If wonderful things come into your life, meditate. If you don't know what to do with your life, meditate. All the answers are there.

Finally, remember, when you are in alignment with your power, your power will go beyond what you ever imagined. Your dreams are just waiting for you to allow them to come true.

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aries

being an Arian I think it’s not a fault or sin to be like one as it describes here. And yes its true being an Arian I love Challenge and adventure, it gives life to this life of mine. Without this two my life would be soooo boring. Another thing about me is I am so open, I’m going to say what I wanted to say. New beginnings, well again for me it’s not good at all because I easily got bored from what I presently working. I love to start anything that looks adventure and is challenging, Energetic hmmm.yes! but once I started that ,.,sorry but I’m bored already I want to start new things again,..,. even if it’s not yet finish, well I guess I haven’t finish anything in my life,.. Let me think,,.,.,. Yeah,.,. i think none.,. everything is unfinished. I handle disappointments easily, once I got disappointed bye,bye. I have all the negative traits of an arian Impatient ,Self-centred ,No concept of others’ feelings ,Lack of foresight ,Impulsive ,Violent temper ,Demanding.,., just name it. My personality,.,.Risk-taker with money? Very honest and open , Very confrontational, A helpful ally and a lethal enemy, hmm,I think I got everything which is written about an aries. Sports???? Sports that are competitive ,Activities that involve risk or a lot of physical energy ,Games that involve tactics ,Theatre ,Collecting and driving fast and expensive cars (in my dream) ,..i am soo interested from all those things.

Likes?dislikes? well I like being thought of very highly ,Having something that nobody else has ,Being dared ,Being in charge and control ,.,Dislikesss., Having to wait (I really got pist making me wait),Being disregarded ,Anything bland or out of date,i hate people who talk about thierselves so much!mayabang ba!!!i don't like talking to those kind of people.. Having your movements limited,( hated so much with dont's so don’t you dare me).
LOVE,LOVE,LOVE, very romantic, Are old-fashioned,., yup that’s me! And I love deeply. Absolute faithfulness, I usually wear my heart out when I’m in love. I want my man to treat me as if i were the only woman in the world That’s why I always end up no one,., hay,.,. perting laaya!!! Anyway,,, how to capture my heart: .,., just Be extremely flirtatious and straight-forward ,Suggest impulsive and spontaneous activities I will be then maybe fall in love with you, Talk about me for hours ok?, and Never whine, beg or be needy,give me space or you will be kicked out!, Prove to that you believe in equality and justice and Don’t be shy or subtle,never tell me what to do nor demand what should i do i hate guys like that.
Work , well Any job where the ability to get up early . I hate being a worker because I always want to do what I want to do all the time.,,.so bad,., coz unfortunately I’ve no enough wealth to be a boss. And maybe that is why I always end up jobless. I need to be challenged when it comes to work,. or shall I say in all aspects, from everything, I just love challenged, hard to do thing with out it, it’s vital for me.

masarap na mahirap

may 2007 noong umalis ako ng pinas para magtrabho sa ibang bansa. syempre excited ako noon kasi sa isip ko sa wakas makasakay ra rin ako ng plane (toinks!!) tsaka kung sakaling hndi ko lyk job ko don pwede akong umuwi so un tira2x!

wow pagdating ko ng malaysia na amazed ako sa ganda ng lugar nila.malinis,matataas na building atmasarap na pagkain pero isang araw ko lang naappreciate yon kasi kinabukasan gusto ko na umuwi ng pinas. wala akong pakialam kung maganda ang place nila, kung matataas buildings nila at masarap ang pagkain fresh! basta uuwi ako,.,hindi ko ipagpapalit ang pinas ko sa lahat ng nakikita ko.

pero hndi natuloy pag uwi ko,hehehe ayaw kasi pumayag nong boss ko ganon lang daw talaga yon masasanay rin ako. kaya yon stay muna ako don for how many days and months.

New American Idol

DAVID COOK

fast fact:

Age: 25
Hometown: Blue Springs, MO
Favorite Quote: "Pain don't hurt." - Patrick Swayze in "Roadhouse"
Audition City: Omaha
Musical Influences: Our Lady Peace, Big Wreck

Crab Mentality

What is Crab Mentality?

Crab mentality describes a way of thinking,best described by the phrase "if I can't have it, neither can you." The metaphor refers to a pot of crabs in which one tries to escape over the side, but is relentlessly pulled down by the others in the pot.

Most of us Filipinos have this kind of attitude. Whenever we see someone improving, someone who strives to be a better person, or someone is about to reach his goal we try to pull them down or distract them in order to fail. Is it jealousy? If not then what is it? If we don't want to be successful one can't we just allow someone who strive to be a better person. People wake up! Think it's time for us to change,if not now then when? When all of us are suffering from failure?

I'm sure you also feel the difficulties we're experiencing right now,Aahmm, i am not trying to say that i blame you from what's happening now, my point is can we change that attitude? Can we erase that from our vocanbulary and instead be a responsible one. You know it feels good when you see someone become successful from all his hardworks, inspiring,isn't it?

Lastly i believe that we are born to succeed so let's start achieving those dreams Now.

Global Warming, everyone's problem.

tWhat is Global Warming?

Global warming is the increase in the average temperature of the Earth's near-surface air and oceans since the mid-twentieth century, and its projected continuation.
The average global air temperature near the Earth's surface increased 0.74 ± 0.18 °C (1.33 ± 0.32 °F) during the hundred years ending in 2005.[1] The Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC) concludes "most of the observed increase in globally averaged temperatures since the mid-twentieth century is very likely due to the observed increase in anthropogenic (man-made) greenhouse gas concentrations” via an enhanced greenhouse effect. Natural phenomena such as solar variation combined with volcanoes probably had a small warming effect from pre-industrial times to 1950 and a small cooling effect from 1950 onward.
These basic conclusions have been endorsed by at least thirty scientific societies and academies of science, including all of the national academies of science of the major industrialized countries. While individual scientists have voiced disagreement with some findings of the IPCC, the overwhelming majority of scientists working on climate change agree with the IPCC's main conclusions.
Climate model projections summarized by the IPCC indicate that average global surface temperature will likely rise a further 1.1 to 6.4 °C (2.0 to 11.5 °F) during the twenty-first century. This range of values results from the use of differing scenarios of future greenhouse gas emissions as well as models with differing climate sensitivity. Although most studies focus on the period up to 2100, warming and sea level rise are expected to continue for more than a thousand years even if greenhouse gas levels are stabilized. The delay in reaching equilibrium is a result of the large heat capacity of the oceans.
Remaining scientific uncertainties include the amount of warming expected in the future, and how warming and related changes will vary from region to region around the globe. Most national governments have signed and ratified the Kyoto Protocol aimed at reducing greenhouse gas emissions, but there is ongoing political and public debate worldwide regarding what, if any, action should be taken to reduce or reverse future warming or to adapt to its expected consequences.


EARTH’S CLIMATE
The Earth's climate changes in response to external forcing, including variations in its orbit around the Sun (orbital forcing), changes in solar luminosity, volcanic eruptions, and atmospheric greenhouse gas concentrations. The detailed causes of the recent warming remain an active field of research, but the scientific consensus is that the increase in atmospheric greenhouse gases due to human activity caused most of the warming observed since the start of the industrial era. This attribution is clearest for the most recent 50 years, for which the most detailed data are available. Some other hypotheses departing from the consensus view have been suggested to explain most of the temperature increase. One such hypothesis proposes that warming may be the result of variations in solar activity.
Attributed and expected effects
Although it is difficult to connect specific weather events to global warming, an increase in global temperatures may in turn cause broader changes, including glacial retreat, Arctic shrinkage, and worldwide sea level rise. Changes in the amount and pattern of precipitation may result in flooding and drought. There may also be changes in the frequency and intensity of extreme weather events. Other effects may include changes in agricultural yields, addition of new trade routes,[76] reduced summer streamflows, species extinctions, and increases in the range of disease vectors.
Social and political debate
Since the last decades of the 20th century, increased awareness of the scientific findings surrounding global warming has resulted in political and economic debate.
The issue of climate change has sparked debate weighing the benefits of limiting industrial emissions of greenhouse gases against the costs that such changes would entail. There has been discussion in several countries about the cost and benefits of adopting alternative energy sources in order to reduce carbon emissions.

It is clear that human activities really effect global warming due to greenhouse gases. Though sun’s orbit also affects earth’s climate, researchers and scientist are still studying about the said thing. Debates amongst them whether who really causes global warming, is it human or natural cause. But I think that there’s no need for anyone to debate who or what really causes global warming, what we need to do now is to find ways on how to minimize it since it’s already here. Let us unite instead of debating further, think and use our heads on what we can do to help, it doesn’t need to be a scientist nor debaters a simple things can help.

Elizabeth Smart Says.,.,

Dinlie Grace 4Ever

June 2001,I was so excited to go to school. It's a whole new different ways of my daily life, simply because I will be a high school student! They say that high school life is so much fun. You will experience and learn lots of things, undergoes many change. Most of the best things that happened in your life.
First day of the class, so excited to meet my new classmates, teachers, a new place and new school. My is a public school named Maharlika National High School, oh how I missed that school and I’m proud of it. I owe a lot from that school. Anyway, when i was inside the campus i started looking my the rooms designated for me. Found it so i come inside and look for a chair in front rows. First i just observe students inside, seems they already know each other then after a couple of hours i noticed two girls at different area of the room, hey were familiar to me so i glanced at them again and that time they look at me too and we smile at each other. That's it! That's how it all started, our precious friendship. We sit beside at each other and chatted. We found out also that we are just neighbors! hahaha, yup. Coincidence...,no destiny maybe. hehehe. From that day we always come to school together and go home together and also with a guy which we consider our bestfriend our neighbor also. No one can separate us, even our teachers. In that room we are known as " naughty intelligent students,., hahaha! maybe? It's our teachers said that..huhuhu,we are good students,.,it's not trueeee,.,.Hmm, anyway all our teachers noticed about it, they noticed how naughty we were in school. If it's just possible we will be just chatting the whole day talking anything. Our teachers called us as energetic it's just because every time we saw us we are always chatting, laughing(loudly) even playing..so childish,.we did anything not to be bored. When our teacher is discussing in front we are at the back doing something like cutting our hair! experimenting what styles we can do to our own hair but we're still listening,, yeah,.,.true.,hehehe. When one felt like going to the comfort room all the three of us will go, we're not so close what do you think? Of all the groups in the campus we are the only group who have that "qualities":)A bottle of 8oz coke and a barbeque will be shared by three, one for all all for one. Lot's of students envy the kind of friendship we have. We are more than like sisters.
Well that is inside the school campus, how about outside? Specially in our house? Different you think, Hmmmm, still the same. No one can separate us, in fact our parents always lost their tempers on us because after school right after we changed dress our parents can't find us already in on the house we we're somewhere else sometimes in SRCES,or mostly just in my house chatting again and again with our other three guys closest or bestfriends . Our favorite place is my house because my parents we're not there it's only me and my younger bro, so we are free to do anything. There in that house we can sleep whenever we want, but as we are good daughters we also did a group study in the house, do our home works and project. Actually those were all alibis just to let stay in the house or together. These five friends of mine will go to their home just to eat and sleep, hehehe. We even cook our food sometimes in house so they don’t need to go home.because when they’ll go home it’s hard to them to come back especially the two girls! their parents won’t allow them to go back anymore,it’s ok with our three guys bestfriends because they are Free stay in the house whenever they want it’s ok to their parents to stay in the house. So every now and then the brother and sister of my two gurl frnd will come to the house and ask them to go home because their mother we’re angry already but we didn’t listen. We’re used to it, it always happen. Sometimes their mother come to the house bringing their things because it seems that they don’t want to go home anymore. Our parents are already hand’s up when it comes to us. When it comes to our friendship we become hard headed but not to the point of being bad, it’s just that it’s hard to separate us. We miss each other so easily.
Hmmmm, when it comes to boys..speaking “of “ we are very much open. No secrets, when someone will court to any of us he must get ready because he needs to court the three of us! The three boys also teach us what to do.,hahaha! You know hard to do that in front of three women. hahaha! Sorry guys we just realized it. And out of those who tried only three got passed and congrats! But they we’re our ex now.,,,.,hayyy. From first year high school to forth year we’re living that way, we used to live that way, our classmates, our teachers our friends ,suitors and family got used to it too. Until we graduated secondary school with honors. And yes it’s true, proven and tested that high school life is unforgettable experienced and be treasured forever.
The next level of life, college ,new challenges. We are afraid that it might not be the same like before. And yes it is, totally different because we will be heading in different ways, different places. Though we really tried not but we have to. We have dreams in life and plans of our own. We can’t stick from what we believed , we can’t be together always as what we have promised. It’s difficult for the three of us, it hurts us because is four long years we used to live like that, used to lived with each other. Just when our parent’s understand us and supported our friendship already. Then suddenly we will be separated from three different places. All the six of us go in different ways. Since we really can’t avoid the changes we will still care for our friendship and take good care of it. No matter what happened nothing will change even we just see each other once or twice a year. Now one of my bestfriend is studying and the other is happily married. The three guys were working now. And finally, I want to introduce my Best friend to you…..,. My best Geraldine Anino and Best Mary Grace Mabido,Best Jonnel,Best frank And Best Ronnel. My best I want you to know that I love you always! And I miss you so much!Best even if we are apart nothing will change we all know about that.Our friendship will stay wherever we are and that’s a promise.


DINLIE GRACE 4EVER
W/ ofcourse Jonel,Frank,Ronnel

Experience Kuala Lumpur

Kuala Lumpur

It’s not nice experience at first because I was stuck at the immigration office! Yeah, true but it’s worth it. The place is beautiful a lots of spectacular to visit. Especially the Twin towers, it’s the tallest building here in Asia. When I first saw it I was amazed by its brilliance, fantastic especially if you are going to see it during night. You can see the clouds around it because of the light reflection coming out from the building. Petaleng jaya is the place there like our divisoria here in Philippines where you can buy cheaper things..Kota Raya is the best place for me because there I meet lots of Filipinos where you can speak our own dialect that sometimes we can feel that it seems we are on our own country. It is an unforgettable experience to stay and work there. People we’re good, they are nice. Can’t wait to work in other countries again.,,hehehe

Thank You

Thank You

It’s hard to find a friend which you can expect to be with you no matter what happen. The one who accept and love you from who you are, even at your wors.That’s why I am so blessed to have you as my friend. You’ve been there through my ups and downs, along with my struggles. You’ve been part of my life’s journey. To my best friends namely Geraldine, Grace, Jonel, Franklin and Ronnel, guys you are so wonderful to have. Thank you so much for being there always, for all the support and love. Thank you for keeping me company especially during those hard days. You are worth keeping FOREVER.

Realize: A bestfriend

Realize: A bestfriend

A bestfriend

June 8,2008,Sunday.That was the day when my ex-boyfriend and at the same time my bestfriend's birth day.Its been quite a while since we broke up and stop our communication.Its been quite a while also since i've been carrying this guilty feeling and the feeling of emptiness inside. God knows how hard i tried to forget him and take him out of my system. I've tried to commit into a relationship thinking that it can help but i was wrong, I'll just be fooling my self by doing so. I've learned that it won't help,and never commit into a relationship if your not done with your last relationship,if it is still unfinished because it will only make things worst. I am still thinking about him,whether if he is fine,if he is thinking of me too. I am so crazy checking every now and then on the net about his sign,about his love tarrot,love scope and everything. I always wanted to text him or call him and ask how he is. But i just can't because he already change his contact #. I was paranoid and really felt pitty on my myself. It appears that i am begging from his love and attention and i really missed him too. Sometimes i just found myself crying for that reason. Don't know what has happened to me. Since we broke up i lose direction of my life,i gave up my dreams,my job,no more goals to achieve and i know who am i. I'm living like a robot, doesn't care what was happening around me. I just live by the day and let it pass.
I am so tired of being like this,acting like this. I want to break out and continue living my life. I can't take it anymore. It's time to face the reality and accept the thing i have to accept and believe that it's all God's plan. I've been suffiring enough,cried and learned a lot.
June 8,2008,On that morning i really don't know what to do. I feel that i want to scape. I want to sleep the whole day and just woke up on june 9,monday. But it's impossible to do that so i just get my self busy. That morning also my best geraldine reminds that it's our bestfriends birth day but i just ignore it and keeping my self busy. N ot knowing that i was already crying. I've a friend about it,and she adviced me that i should do what i think is right.She gave me some advices. At first i am afraid to do it. But at the end of the day i came to think that it's time to do it. I've decided to talk to him once and for all. To finish the unfinished things between us.I don't want us to end like this. I missed my bestfriend!So since i don't have his contact # i asked it first to his co worker i've known. Then i texted himand ask if i can talk to him and he said yes. I was surprised then call him,i don't know what to say but idon't like that silence between us on the phone so i greet him happy birthday. I was happy to know that he was happy that i remembered his bday and called him because he already miss his bestfriend he said. I was speechless at the moment. Don't know what to say. Don't know if i have to go on. But i've decied already so i told him what i need to say,everything i need to say,that i still love him,that i can't live my life without him...............

It was like the clock stops running...,.,.,.,....,,,,,
while waiting what he will be going so say..........

Then he said he love so much that he doesn't want me to get hurt anymore,specially by him.
He said that it's time to switch back the way we were before as best of friends. In that way he can never hurt me again and still loving me. Yes i love him that much too,and i feel what he feel,maybe we're just not meant to be partner in life because it will just hurt us both. The love we feel for each other id meant to be just best of friends. I realize also that i can give up a partner but i can never give up my bestfriend. The best friend i'v used to be with in almost 6 years.

My Bestfriend

Once i fell in love of my bestfriend. I don't know how and when did it all begun. All i know is i love him that much. Now that we're apart and broke..i still love him the way i used to. I still love him in spite of everything,in spite of the pain it brought to me.It's really hard to accept that everything between us is over.
All of us are hoping to have a long lasting relationship ,of course who doesn't want to,right. Nobody wants to be broken,to be hurt and hurt someone. But no matter how we love that person if you were not meant to be it's just wouldn't be.
I thought that i was stupid for loving him continuously. I tried to move on but it is not that easy. I Can still remember the time when i told you that i will never give you up,i will never give up our love and fight for it even if a lot of people do not want us to be together. But i realize that it's not that easy. It's just that how can you fight for that love if the other person give it up already.How can you stand on it if the person you love,the person you're trying to fight for,loves somebody else.
From the very start i knew that we'll just be hurting ourselves but still i tried,we tried and hoped that it would be a happy ending like those fairytale love stories found on the books,an unconditional love as what they called it. But we we're wrong because there's no such thing in this world.
Sometimes i found myself crying looking nowhere. Awake until dawn trying to figure out why it has to happen. Why do we have to get hurt and cry.Many times i have told him that I regret the day i met him,regret why did i follow my heart. All i want to do is to hate him but i just can't.
Well,everybody made mistakes. Mistakes that brought our relationship to an end.I told you that i can live my life without you. And I thought i can stand on it but i really can't no matter how hard i try. I'll just hope that someday everything will be ok.

Pain

Once i fall in love with my best friend
I don't know when and how did it all happened. All i know is i loved him since the day we've meet.Inspite of the things had happened,inspite of the pains and heartaches i still care for him. It's hard to accept that it's over. And it's not easy to lose the person you love. All of us are looking forward to a lasting relationship,ofcourse you do not want to end that relationship because you simply don't want to lose the person you love most.But what if that person wasn't really meant for you?

I thought i was so stupid for loving him though it's over,for showing i still care inspite of everything he did to me,inspite of the pain he made me felt.I can still remember the time when i told him before that i will never give up our relationship and i'll fight for it. But i realize that it is not that easy,it's just that how would you fight for that love if the one you're fighting for give it up already? How can you fight for him if he doesn't love you anymore?

From the very beginning i know that this will only hurt me,but i still go on and hoped that it will be fine,hoped to have a happy ending relationship just like those fairytale love stories in the book ,an unconditional love as what they call it.,.but that was before because i came to realize that there's no such thing in this world,we can't get everything we want.It's all or nothing,if he loves somebody else i will be happy to set him free. knowing that he is enough for me. Yes
I cried nights and nights,found myself awake so late trying to figure out why it has to happen,why do i have to cry like what i did because of you,why do i have to got badly hurt this much??? Maybe because it is what it takes to love someone???

Nsabi ko sayo, sa lahat ng malapit sa akin at sarili ko na pinagsisihan kong ikaw ang minahal ko,kung bakit sunod-sunuran ako sa nararamdaman ko.Actually hindi ei,.,hindi ko pinagsisihang nagmahal ako,at ikaw ang minahal ko.I don't know why nor how,mahirap ipaliwanag pero yan ang nararamdaman ko.Through words maybe i fool everybody but i really can't fool myself.Galit ako sayo! ni ayaw kong marinig pangalan mo,lahat ng ala-ala mo nawala lahat sa isip ko.Nag isip ako ng masama sayo,i have told my friends how bad and conscienceless you are.But this is because i'm so mad at you,dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Well,everybody made a mistake ika nga. You made mistakes and so do i.Mistakes that brought our relationship to an end.And it did breaks me a lot.Akala ko hindi ko kakayanin,i thought i can't stand no more mula sa pagkakamali kong iyon.But i really tried everything.I've tried my best to understand you,to be on your shoe.

Now i am not that mad at you anymore,ofcourse it ididn't appear to me like magic!it came to me gradually. I figured it out na it's not only your fault anyway,i have my own faults also.Maybe it's time to accept na siguro we're really not meant for each other. Isang pagkakamali lang ang relasyon na yon and so we have to learn from our mistakes.

Also,i do believe na lahat ng bagay happnes for a reason and i have accepted whatever reason lies behind it.Though i really don't want to let you go but everything says that i have to.

Don't worry,Naiintindihan na kita,naiintindihan ko na lahat.